Surrender

I surrender all fight and flight flickering like fireflies all in my head… bright yet no way capture such cages of torture

I surrender all anxiety of anguish no anticipation of the treacherous push and pull crumbling within the guts, aching in self-doubt and shame

I surrender my need for control… control trying its best to conquer the calmness of me, myself… versus my pain, my fear of loss and deception

Deceitful conceited lies

Lies, I tell myself to ease such indecision… blurring the lines of inner voice and innercritic

The stern force trying to overtake any soft curing voice… the inner graces of whisper- telling me it’ll all be okay